Growing up, I was a big Britt Nicole fan. 

When I heard her songs come on the radio I would beg my parents to turn it up. When I got a new CD of hers at church I would play it over and over again. When she came out with a new album, I simply had to have it. Then, when my cousin went to her concert and got me a bracelet, I don't think I took it off for a year. 

You get the obsession, right? ;)

However, as I grew up, I didn't listen to her as much. It was nothing against her, I simply just found other music and kind of drifted away from it. 

About a month ago when we were at Dunamis and I began getting really sick, I was messaging my dad about my frustrations and struggles. I don't exactly remember how the conversation went, but he encouraged me to find a song that was hard to sing in the middle of difficult circumstances. An act of surrender, if you will. 

It's funny, because right before I had that conversation with my dad I randomly remembered an old Britt Nicole song that I used to love. I didn't realize it in the moment, but it was actually the Lord giving me the song ahead of time. He knew my dad would be making that recommendation, and He knew exactly what I needed. 

The song is called Have Your Way, and the chorus goes something like this...

I'll stop searching for the answer

I'll stop praying for an escape

And I'll trust you, God, with where I am

And believe that You will have Your way

Just have Your way

The entire song is about accepting the pain and the circumstances of a situation if it means that the Lord will have His way, especially if it isn't what you want. That was a really hard one for me, especially in a place of being so sick. But even though it was a hard surrender, it was what I needed. 

After coming back from Dunamis, we stayed at the World Race base with Mabe and Fabi for what was supposed to be a week. However, Sunday night people began to get really sick, and we were supposed to leave the following morning. Needless to say, we are still at the base and not at our new ministry site. These past few days have been hard, because we are not where we expected to be and it's hard knowing that your friends are sick and there is nothing you can do about it. 

Guess what song the Lord had me listen to?

It is so hard asking the Lord to have His way sometimes. Especially when His way looks nothing like our way. Something He has been teaching me, though, is that His way is better and it always will be. 

In what ares of your life do you need to let the Lord have His way?